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We can't avoid the inevitable but seriously, not now when we've done nothing!
Recently, I begun watching this Korean drama ("not again..." you might be thinking)
From what I understand, it's about this group of boys who come together to play ROCK music and have fun. Every one of them has some dramatic and sad family background so they rely much on each other for warmth and support. The brotherhood amongst them is really heart-warming. When they faced financial difficulty (needing to buy expensive uniforms in their new school), all of them worked hard to come up with the cash. They participated in snooker matches and even worked part-time jobs to raise enough money.
Throughout the first episode, I really liked this dude whom I felt was the ringleader and main character - ByungHee. He had the most swag, fought well and loved to put on a thick smudge of eye-liner.
However, I found out yesterday that in the second episode, he died.
Brilliant. -_-
I am currently watching the third episode to find out how the matter was handled.
And apparently I cried so hard just watching his friends attempt getting over his death.
I think I'm a pretty sentimental person because I tend to put too much feelings into what I see through my eyes. In a way, whatever the scenario is, I would subconsciously put myself into the person's shoes. And in this case, I kinda imagined what if my best friend was killed and the indirect / direct culprit was a freaking bitch/ass that we both hated. Gosh. I don't think I would be able to control myself.
Our lives are that fragile if you think about it and a push, a fall can be real severe. We can really use the extra alertness and live our lives more safely such as not using the phone when you cross roads, stop jay-walking or walking on the cycling path, perhaps even listening to your surroundings instead of blasting music into both ears. Oh, and mainly for adults, NEVER drink and drive! Soooooooo dangerous! Now I'm beginning to sound like an aunty.
Hey y'all, now would be a good time to grab your phone (IDC if it's a telephone or lousy phone), call/ text your best friends and let them know how much they really mean to you! Well, it may be too sudden so it'll be recommended that you just wish them a good day or tell them a joke. HAHA. Or yeah, call to catch up if you havent been doing so.
This is too dramatic. FINE, do what you want GAHHHH.
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anyway, i've got this nice shade of demon blue on my left hand nails.
awesome.
my third time trying this on my own!
awesome colour. NO JOKE.
wish i could put up a picture but I'm really lazy and ITnoob. HAHAH.
Today was an awesome day out with The SHEEW.
They inspired me to work harder next year cause I'm gonna use a notebook to take down commitments.
Planner but not quite planner. (Y)
My handwritings gonna be the huge obstacle.
yeah.
cheerios~
Labels: Smilez and frowns everyday...
On Sunday, December 30, 2012 at 9:25 PM
No regrets, remember? Time to unchain my heart...
It is rumoured that the world ends tomorrow. 21/12/12
Sounds... pretty sadistic right?
Well, people all around (on twitter / facebook etc) have been coming up with all the random-est sh**.
Some people may just be insensitively joking about death but deep inside, I'm sure nobody wants to die yet.
Death, what a scary word.
To die when you haven't even accomplish anything you dreamt of, is painful.
To die when you've just entered the world, is scary.
To die with regrets, is frustrating.
To die while sleeping, makes no sense.
To die with a chained up heart is not what I or anybody else wants.
For this past year, it was harsh.
I dare to admit that it has been non-motivational, lonely and mentally draining.
I was so used to depending on this person to spin my world that when we separated, I didn't expect it would be difficult.
I was cleaning the room this morning and found the paper board you made and I didn't stop the memories from swimming back. This post is for you.
Thinking back, I remember how it all started with text messages and erm, grapes? HAHA.
How the HFMD survivor (we both know who this is) was indirectly the one to spark the messages.
Our first alone-out-time was at.... *drumroll* a library (Wow?) for some school. holiday. homework.
Imagine that.
We enjoyed sharing so many experiences that most of the time, we just walked and talked and explored Singapore. The feeling of just being next to each other was enough to distract us from caring about what the heck we were even doing or where the heck we were going.
It's comical how we both made a silent confession to each other when we held hands and we didn't let go.
Well, I searched my brain web and turns out that this section of the history wasn't deleted.
Breakfast sandwiches with ham. Yummy. Getting rid of cockroach corpse and THE joke. (yeap, I still remember.) That day when you showed up at the void deck so unexpectedly late. That overhead bridge I would take after twelve. Mr Webs. That penguin with "scary eyes". Ghas. Tape? I remember tape! Amazing. watermelon + strawberry. (-_-) How you never fail to write uber long cards for me and a time when I was so touched I cried (oh so embarrassingly) The endless encouragements ever since when we were just friends. Bottle of stars @the beach. All the first times that I would never forget.
It is almost impossible to forget someone who gave you so much to remember and received so much of your love.
I know you told me before that you don't believe in friendship after break-ups.
I promised January but I think everything has changed. I wonder if you still kept the things I gave you.
How I wish we could just meet up and talk but I don't think I have the courage to text you first.
Stupid and pathetic me.
It feels like we were so close and now, just strangers.
Is this what you want?
I have left my feelings chained up inside my heart for quite some time.
It is very uncomfortable so today I've decided to let go.
The period of time we shared was definitely freaking dramatic and I think I was so caught up in the whirlpool of emotions that nothing else mattered that much.
When I think back to those times, I will still cry. Not tears of regret or pity but tears of gratitude to creator for letting our paths cross. heh, but deep inside I know this is kinda the worse... the irony.
Because there are three types of lines.
Lines that are collinear, parallel lines and lines that intersect at a point.
And our fate lines seem to get further and further apart as time brings us into the future.
It would be a total lie to say I don't miss you but at least now, at this time, I'm ready to let gooooooooooo.
I will move on from this chapter, I promise~
HEHE, whatever's in the past IS the past.
:D HOHOHO! and santa goes "MERRY CHRISTMAS!"
*feeling aload better now.
Labels: Smilez and frowns everyday...
On Thursday, December 20, 2012 at 11:55 AM
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