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A dream i never wanna wake up from...
the tension and worried-ness filled me completely. I knew at any moment i was going to blank out. I just knew it. But i didn't know when. _____
Singapore Poly RAWKS! =O Yes, I'm serious. hoho.
Participated in the Young Entrepreneurship for Society Competition today! [YES competition] It was an electrifying experience. It is basically this program for students to innovate, come up with ideas and pitch them infront of a panel of judges. The preliminary and finals were held on the same day so time was tight and we only had 5minutes to pitch. There were 43 schools, a total of 80 plus teams. So we were split into 8panels. Each panel was to come up with a finalist team each which formed the 8 teams going for the finals. Well, apart from the delicious free food supplied and the time i somehow fell asleep before the finals, everything was nerve-wrecking! serious. Jia Ai, Celine, Daryl, Estee and I like only practised a full confirm practice this morning. LOL. And we only memorised everything today!!! T_T That's why I panicked like mad woman. Somehow, my part was super confusing and long AND I kept screwing up. SIAN. I screwed preliminary. Blinked for 5-10 seconds before my spirit re-entered my body. LOL. But overall, it was fun. =]
We went first for the preliminary.
Later, we were sent to the auditorium~ I was somehow, expecting us to make it into finals but i wasn't too sure because we had competitors. So, I went to sleep. Jia Ai too. I woke up just before they announced the finalists. I was kinda shocked when I heard our school name and some weird group name. So we were still in the blur state. Celine shook Jia Ai up and we rushed to the finalist corner after the fourth team called had already settled down. We were freaking nervous. YES. I was afraid I'd make blunders everywhere... Like what I did for the preliminary... Moreover, we were facing an entire auditorium of ppl.
HERE COMES THE SCARY PART. We thought there'd be a 15 minutes preparation time given. BUT OH NO!!! They just called us to go up the stage and we were like omg. Somehow, we were totally mentally and physically unprepared. Especially when Jia Ai just woke up and I wasn't prepared to go up on stage just like this. The backstage guy was telling us to go go go. We were like, PLEASE give us 5minutes to discuss. Then the lady saw us and said, okay, 1minute to discuss. AHHHHHHHHHH! Time literally ticked. Before I knew it, the man was 'shooing' us on the stage. I dazily climbed up the backstage stairs with a microphone in my hands. The one word in my mind was 'damn'
We went up on stage as the first team for the finals. Somehow, we didn't really know when to start and we had to inform when to change slides. So, we wasted time there and didn't really manage to finish with our USE SKCHARGE, YES! T_T So sad... _____
After watching through all the team's presentation, I somehow got the feeling that WE HAVE CHANCE OF GETTING INTO TOP THREE. But, as usual, I wasn't sure at all. Cause Daryl was emo-ing and Celine was sure we weren't gonna get it. I just felt a little depressed. _____
When they gave out the merit awards, I was expecting the first name to be CCHMS. But who knew, it wasn't us. Celine started telling us about how Denise tio the last merit and we felt upset again about the possibility. BUT WHO KNEW!!!!!!!!! We went into the top three! I was freaking happy. Then Daryl showed the face like we were damnitly going to get first for sure. haha I somehow felt that happiness all over me, and not just within me. I tried to suppress that feeling cause there's still the possibility of not getting it. Once I heard that the third place was not us, I WAS FREAKING HAPPY!!! They called us to stand on the stage before they finally announced the winner.
I looked down the whole time. Not because of shame. Not because of panicking. Just because the spot light was too strong and I was smiling so widely that I began thinking I'm turning unglam. LOL. At first they said the YES Reloaded 2010 champions is... on the go... (group name) I didn't get it until they said CCHMS!!! MUAHAHA. I was so shocked and so happy that my tears were close to flowing out!!! I never felt so proud and happy before!! OMG!! That feeling was wondrous. But short... T_T When I received the big, thin, heavy trophy, I was already smiling till I unglam. LOL I bet there were so many eyes on us!!! OMG! It's just so UNBELIEVABLE! _____
Just super proud we made history for CCHMS. Though when I was traveling home in the mrt, it felt as if nothing happened. Everything just past so quickly. I'm never forgetting this time when I won something with so much effort. satisfactory. _____
THE BEST PART ABOUT YES COMPETITION. We made friends with ppl from DHS. We started out not knowing each other till someone actually broke the awkwardness today during ice breakers. haha. I remember when we went crazy with ANIME~ I was like, who watches hitman reborn? Then we were all super freaking high!!! =O
Thanks for the motivation, DHS. Thanks to Vivian, Jun De, Brandon, Zheng Yu and Benjamin. We all rawked~ _____
A dream that I never want to wake up from... Though I know I must... To carry on learning and striving... It's what we have to do... =] Labels: Smilez everyday...
On Friday, June 11, 2010 at 8:57 PM
Self-contradiction is never best...
I don't know whether to laugh or to cry... Spotting a sense of jealousy and misery... What the heck is wrong with me... My heart feels a wrenching ache.
I'm not sure what I want... I don't even know myself anymore... Don't know if this was the ending I hoped for... My heart feels a wrenching ache.
Life is just too confusing and too mysterious. I'm not good enough, that's what I inferred. I didn't hold on to it. Regretting is no use now.
It's all my fault. Can't blame anyone. Yes, I shall accept fate. Promised myself I'll do the best to my ability. my life is full of toleration.
I will wait... I promise.
LALALA! FORGET EVERYTHING AND MOVE ON... *smiles.
Labels: frowns everyday...
On Thursday, June 3, 2010 at 6:41 PM
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