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This is my corner... If you're looking for trouble, please leave me alone...
Apparently, was stuck at three questions...
Natural instincts would tell you to ask for help.
Teachers teach us to ask for help.
Parents nag us to ask for help.
They buy us a handphone to ask for help and help others.
Even the baby will cry for help when he needs his diapers changed.
"I feel like a baby who cried and cried and finally died because I have no more tears..."
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Nowadays, I'm not sure if I'm just emotional / crybaby / weakling / idiot...
Everytime I do my homework, I just feel like breaking down.
I think of so many things.
-My EOYs are coming yet I still dont know so much, I'm still so blur!!!
-Literally pekchek because of my inability to cope with secondary school life and extreme workload.
-If I cant handle this now, how am I to handle my job in the future..?!
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Just now, I spent 1 hour smsing and calling, desperate for help, yeah I know, its a sunday and all, but I just feel so useless and angry at myself for not being able to do three AMATH questions.
ARGH. I was so frustrated with myself that I literally broke down and cried...
My mum came in to sweep the floor, somewhat shocked to see me crying in my room yet not making a sound.
And she told me: (chinese)
"Aiyo, do homework, do until cry ar? ke lian...
There's bound to be questions you're unable to answer, Winnie, if you know how to answer them all, you'll already become a teacher. Bring your homework to school tomorrow and asks those geniuses~"
I love my mum.
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Such an inspirational line.
Though I felt like smaching my phone, I just switched it off and threw it aside.
I kept my disgusting amath homework and studied bio~
I'm beginning to love self studying for biology on a free sunday afternoon~
so there I was happily filling my textbooks with colours and post-its.
Bio rawks in solving my emo-ness.
What a weird thing to say... LOL.
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I feel that as the years past, the human life really pushes the human body to the limit.
Those unable to catch up will definitely fall back, unable to carry on.
Those barely hanging on will eventually let go because there IS no hope.
Those clinging so tightly will scar their legs and lose so much energy and drop off.
The remaining people, sitting on comfortably are the ones setting the rules.
Don't you think so?
Hence, all these lead to corruption etc. If they are unable to stay on board fairly, they'll find ways to stay on board, illegal ways of course.
I find myself unable to fight everything at once.
I can't fight the tops.
I can't fight the medium.
I can't fight the cheaters.
I'm losing hope, and fast.
Soon, I'll just be standing there, watching as the world leaves me behind and gets further and futher away from me.
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After reading through what I typed, I can only conclude one thing.
I'm emo. =[
Things ALWAYS don't go the way I want it to be.
It will never be the way I want it to be.
Goodbye to the dreams I used to hold on so tightly to...
Go on without me... I'll never catch up...
Labels: frowns everyday...
Just a random, average short girl who believes that life is a disaster in disguise as a blessing... Worrying has become a habit but anime will always remain engraved in my mind. =] Currently addicted to spacing out... And... Sleep is prioritised as number 1! People know me as Winnie. And I have roamed the Earth for 15 years. It all began on 14th September 1995...
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