Reminiscing those days...
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Oxymoronically new and old feelings...
Today's Thursday but somehow, it feels like Friday already!
This shows how badly I really want the weekends to come... :)
Another week has past and a whole load of new information has again forcefully made its way into my puny brain. I figured out that I spend quite a load of time figuring out how to figure out the new knowledge and especially how exactly to apply them in the tutorial questions.
Well, I guess I am somehow adapting to the constant mad rush not only for tutorials but also projects and presentations, though I am still trying to get the hang of presenting without feeling worried.
On the academic side, I am seriously lagging behind.
Let me see, I've got mathematics, chemistry, biology and economics tutorial to complete... ( which is about almost everything) and to top it all, I have PW solutions as garnish.
I am currently facing difficulty understanding and processing everything taught in lectures and tutorials.
Most of the time, I can't concentrate (i think) and I end up stoning there.
My brain feels so saturated at times like these and I can't force myself to think!
It gets pretty irritating (for myself) because I sincerely want to contribute.
Anyway, I haven't gotten back all the papers from the Block Test but I've received my math and chem papers already. Considering the fact that I did study for Chemistry, getting a 'S' wasn't what I expected..
As for math, I felt that the paper was inhumanly tough but apparently, more than half of the school begged to differ. While 33% were rewarded with As and 22% managed Bs (statistics from my math teacher), I scrapped a hard and cold U.
It is truly puzzling how the brains of geniuses work...
I know of people are are impressively hardworking (and some of them even have loads of time on their hands) but it is also easy to identify those who have the pure talent and flair in academic subjects.
What's the difference between them and me?
Determination?
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Beach tchoukball is coming~
However, I've landed myself with a wound that doesn't seem to close, a bruise on the side of the knee and the shin splint (is this how you spell it?) thingy. The wound and the bruise happen to be at areas where I would definitely have contact with the sand so I'm pretty worried and scared I might cause my team any inconvenience.
I love tchoukball and I really want to be a reliable + imba + short + erratic player on the team...
I am going to strive for a real competition on Sunday and give it my very best!
Trust my coach, my team-mates and my abilities! WHEE~
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What's on my mind these few days:
- effective ways to attack and defend (obviously about tchouk)
- how to understand my lectures and tutorials better so that I can help klutzy, katiard and myself.
- diet (no joke. I gained 3kg and though my friends told me it is muscles, I beg to differ)
- PW solutions
- how to appreciate others (i feel that I should do something to encourage those around me who are super diligent and full of perseverance though they are THAT tired)
- what do people need now in life?
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Trying hard to appreciate life as it is...
Real harsh but plainly simple
Full of pricks yet embraces us like a cloud-like bed...
Labels: Smilez and frowns everyday...
On Thursday, July 12, 2012 at 5:27 PM
Reminiscence!
While I was part dazing and part dreaming this morning on my way to Maple woods with 100 fishballs, I tried hard to think about memories that I have't dug out from my brain compartments for a long time.
I realised that a huge chunk of information about my Primary school life is gone, close to 50% of Secondary school life is forgotten and I cant seem to remember what I was doing 2 weeks and 6days ago...
Maybe it's because the things that I do aren't that interesting and quite mundane that's why I don't bother to store them in my internal hard disk.
But no matter what, there are important memories I hold dear to my heart and I want to always think back to these fond moments.
I believe that there are currently 5 moments in life that I dare to say was magical and I simply dont ever want to forget.
I recall the unexpected and immense joy when Estee, Tan Xinyi, President, Jia Ai and I won YES competition. The nervousness and complete confusion when we were "pushed" onto stage while realising we had made it successfully to the final round of judging. After giving our best shot, it was totally unbelievable when our group name was announced as the champions. For that few seconds, I felt recognition standing on that stage with bright lights shining upon me and a huge group of audience staring down at us. I literally felt like I was in another world when the celebratory music was going on in the background. It was amazing.
The other magical moment would definitely be receiving my Olevels results. Any ex-classmate of mine would gladly tell you how dramatically poor my prelims 1 and 2 results were. I remembered myself reading TP magazine and wondering which course should I sign up for. The moment Mrs Lim showed me my result slips, I believe it was the first time I felt so much of pure joy and surprise and I was so happy that my tears NEARLY spilt out.
In 2011, I took part in NDP volunteering with TXY, Estee and her bro. I've never felt so much patriotism towards my country ever before. Never in my wildest dreams have I imagine myself standing on the floating platform and to be at a genuine NDP! Though I watched the rehearsals many times, none could ever defeat the actual live NDP! While standing at my position, as I watched the beautiful stage, the Singapore flyer was to my left, followed by the "SHIP", then the nicely lit CBD. It was so romantic to have bubbles and then confetti around me at separate times. It was so heartwarming too.
Fourthly, after practising so hard for 4 years just to perform for SYF for a few minutes, the feeling I felt when playing the music my friends and I learnt together infront of the crowd was super exhilarating! Trusting my friends, believing myself and having faith in the conductor.
Last but not least, I remember that day when I cried so much due to happiness and being overly touched by this boy when I only received one small yet sincere notebook. That feeling is indescribable and priceless.
Everybody has moments they want to lock up in their minds and in their hearts and as long as they are alive, they would never forget these important feelings.
If given a chance, I would like to experience them all over again..
Labels: Smilez everyday...
On Saturday, July 7, 2012 at 11:53 PM
Just BEAR with it...
I have just realised that Blogger actually conducts a page view counter and apparently, I've had 20 views yesterday. Wow, that's a lot... for ONE DAY, don't you think? :OThe first week of Term 3 is FINALLY over. Somehow, I've been waiting for today to come because that'll mean a s.t.o.p. in the pile-age of homework and projects.
When work piles up so fast, it's hard to breath and I feel like I'd succumb to the pressure any moment.
I may seem calm on the outside and feel calm on the inside but truthfully, I want to enter a sound-proof room and scream to my heart's content.
Undoubtedly the work, now compared to before, is more difficult and I am older in terms of years but I've always felt like my mental capabilities remained at the age of a Primary schooler.
Well, sitting in lectures means learning new knowledge so there is a reason why the things teachers talk about are so confusing and complicated sounding.
What makes it so much worse is that even during English Lessons (GP) and Science lessons, I find it hard to keep up. Perhaps it's all because of my all-time super LOW general knowledge and world-awareness... ):
I know there are others out there who are really trying hard to cope with balancing their commitments and academics, so I don't have the rights to claim that I have no time and no mood.
Estee once posted this quote on fb which I found true.
"Of course it's hard. It's supposed to be hard. If it were easy, everybody could do it. Hard is what makes it great."
So I guess I'll just have to bite my lips and hang on till the end.
Trust my teachers, trust my friends and trust myself.
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Recently, I'm on a diet.
Yes.
I can't stand my mum nagging about me getting fatter because of the random addiction to bubbletea and other random bottle drinks I like to bring home. The problem is : I see that too and I know I'm becoming fatter. It's just so terrible to hear from her and letting her squish the extra fats around my tummy. ):
Anyway, I managed to scrimp and safe and diet this whole week. I only ate lunch on Thursday while the other days I had hot dog bun or just water. To think I was going to save close to my entire weekly allowance of $50... Then unfortunately, I had to pay $20 for econs and chem notes, another $20 for bio and math and $16 for the faculty pull-over... Heh... save...
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Beach Tchoukball competitions are coming but I've accidentally scrapped my right knee cap.
SIA LA...
It's not very serious just that I didnt apply anything for the past three days and the pain only stopped this afternoon...
I want to be the small + reliable + Imba right wing...
I want to be recognised for having skills.
I want to become good at this sport I like.
HAHA... Then at least I feel satisfaction from JC life...
Gonna work on the spins from left and high degree shots from both sides in the coming week.
Since I cannot shoot that well at the beach, I'm going to focus more on defending!
Whoots! :D
I love tchoukball~
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I miss estee, xinyue and president...
I know I ain't that good but I'll work towards improving myself.
Labels: Smilez and frowns everyday...
On Friday, July 6, 2012 at 9:58 PM
About me
Just a random, average short girl who believes that life is a disaster in disguise as a blessing... Worrying has become a habit but anime will always remain engraved in my mind. =] Currently addicted to spacing out... And... Sleep is prioritised as number 1! People know me as Winnie. And I have roamed the Earth for 15 years. It all began on 14th September 1995...
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