Sigh~ Band is getting more interesting... Somehow, I was made to sit at corner today... Scary cause I have no reference on the left and have to concentrate (120%), look at the baton that never stops moving, listen to every instrument which I most probably can hear while I'm playing... ALL AT THE SAME TIME. Well, the only instruments I hear clearly are the saxophones... -.-They're right behind me, what do you expect...-.- Of course I hear them. Sigh, I realise I actually rush at some places and it will be damn awkward la, if you blow then everyone comes in...-.- Okay, maybe that's not very scary. What's scary is that you get picked out by Mr Wong all of a sudden, don't know what's going to happen to you, and, get humiliated infront of others... AND, WORST, something you know how to play then you panic and cannot get the sound out... Well, that always happen to me...-.- I don't know why... Crap. Then, so weird. Mr Wong didn't really point out that FLUTE got something wrong and stuff like that... But he did use higher woodwinds. Hmm, is it that we're really trying to improve and he sees it, or he just purposely DON'T want to waste time on us, or he thinks spoon feeding us will make things worst, or he just cannot hear us. Especially when I am, seriously, DAMN OUT OF TUNE.-.- ARGH! Out of some where, no, everywhere, I ear myself clashing and I try to get in tune but no~, turn out, clash more, turn in (which means that entire section is sharp-.-), cause it sounds better yet there's still clashing. Which finally actually means, there's some people who are clashing against each other, either they can't hear or they heck care... Great, I seriously cannot tune!@#^&%$E% Turn in, clash-.- Turn out, clash more-.- Don't care about it, irritate my ears, feel uncomfortable-.- Care, get myself pissed about helplessness in getting in tune-.- Then there's NO point in trying if A is flat, B is sharp, you tune to A, you clash with B, you tune to B, you clash with A-.- Stay center? So dumb, clash with both. Somemore, we are expected to be in tune after 15 minutes of warm up. Tuning alone takes so much time lor, sometimes not even perfect and we just move on. Cause not enough time and we need to correct some stuff. Sigh~ I am not complaining here, just stating fact. 

I feel damn scared about playing high notes now that I understand intonation. Cause higher notes are always out of tune for FLUTES. They're more difficult to tune lar. Like even if you are in tune with tuner, other people are most likely to go sharp. Then, if you'll be sticking out and clashing so you have to sharpen with them. LOL. Worst, everybody got sharp got flat. -.- I'd rather not play lor like that. Playing will only cause more noise pollution and ear ache. What's more, there are already enough noise. 

I AM VERY OUT OF TUNE. No, let me rephrase, i may not be out of tune sometimes, perhaps is other peeps out of tune then cause clashing. But most probably, I'll tune to others cause I doubt my ability to keep a good sound after 2.5 hours. 

Hmm, actually, i have a question. Can Mr Wong hear every single one of the FLUTES clearly at where he is sitting? Or he just hear sound which he knows it's made by FLUTE by don't know who... Hmm, actually have lots of these type of questions so I'll slowly ask one by one in different posts. Hehe!

Hmm, next about the topic on who'll will be the next descendant of the PICCOLO!!! -.- Hmm, jq felt that xh might not be playing piccolo cos he's too pro in flute. I personally think xx will get cause he have lots of air in him...hmm, is he gonna read this too?0.0

Then I think I confirm won't get one cause I so lousy-.- i can even blow high note easily, not enough air, so dumb sia, passing piccolo to me = to very pessimistic idea. Forcing me to force my air out crazily. -.-

Then aiyah, so dumb, now to think of it, don't you think worrying about these stuff now very early? Somemore we have SYF to worry about. THERE is seriously no time left...-.- What if SYF is tomorrow?! =[ AHHHHHH! P.A.N.I.C.! Ohya, regarding Band, I think they're gonna make us conduct-.- so scary. Hehe, purposely slow down and go fast. -.- HAHAHA! LOL.

Okay, finally, COMMON TESTS NEXT WEEK!!! OMG! Die liao, mugging period starting tomorrow. 

Chinese then Chemistry!

Geography and History memorise crazily. 

Math must see all the dumb presentations-.- Die because of presentations.

Did I miss out anything? PE! LAME-.-

Eng LIT!!! DIE... I never get A or B before... Sad... 

No more le ba... Hmm... Okay. JIAYOU in mugging!

Mug mug mug mug mug mug... IS FOR DRINKING! -.- Mug mug mug mug mug mug mug!

JY everyone who reads this post for SYF, tESTS and everything. Hehe, you never read then too bad, don't get my blessing, sure die de...lol

It's raining now...! YAY~

Okay, you'all keep pestering me to change my blogskin so I'm now currently looking for a neat one... -.- Omg, I think I found one!!! Hehaho... Hmm, maybe I should think about it...

Band is seriously stressing me out... Sigh~ i am hungry. 

Hey, 2BN is finally having a class outing in March! We can finally go out!!!

If you look closely, I am actually not who I am...

 

Next, I have a 'buddy', Shiyin. Hahs, she'll be tutoring me for BAND! YAY! =] Now, we have to return to BAND room practically everyday. Skip interaction and assembly, tues and thurs need to come, including the compulsary days, wed and fri, yes, it's everyday. That proves that people do look down on us... Okay, to put in a nicer way, they know we desperately need help-.- Lols. Sigh~ That also shows to have relaxing days, I need to not relax first...-.- Which actually means we reap what we sow... -.- Okay, jiayou ba, wang winnie... JY flute section!

Oh yes, I'm still pissed over the dumb old lady... And, I seriously need sleep. 

Crap, forgotten to bring home chinese textbook now cannot learn chinese spelling... And worse, I suck at it... Hehe, luckily I have a good friend called Celine who is willing to type all the spelling words to me through MSN! =] Msn= a wonderful thing-.- YAY><>

Finally, must conclude, again. 

Life is complicated, look at things in a simpler way and you'll find your answers...~

Okay, just came back from this auntie trip to the Botanic Garden(s). Hehe, everyone's crazy about taking photos! =] Including me! Only that I look like an idiot in every picture... Oh well, nvm... 

Next, BAND! Haha, yes, Celine is right, I crazy about Band... Life is... different without Band... =l I guess the only way to get ourselves familiar with the notes is to practise over and over again and then add in all the crappy dynamics and articulation... When I voted, I promised that I'll give my best for Atopa... Well, I didn't have any opinion for O2 except that my jaw dropped when I saw the articulation it had in every bar... Okay, this is going to take some time... -.- Then now, my Atopa is 40% ready for the fact that I memorised everything except the running notes and some parts at the end which I hadn't practise yet due to the attention i gave to O2. Then the dynamics and articulation haven't really got in yet. So yeah, there you have it, 40%... For O2, it will be 5% only cause Mr W said to focus and go step by step, solve one thing by one thing. And we're solving rhythm + notes first. =l Okay, this is the analysis of my improvements....-.- I think I'm going to spend 2 hours later for my flute...=]  Okay, must be positive, JIAYOU WINNIE! =]

Lol, my mother has enough of me sitting on the piano chair, emo-ing, sitting infront of the keyboard emo-ing somemore, then falling asleep on the sofa near the piano emo-ing again... That, she (Ey, actually is my dad's suggestion) has decided to bring us for CHILLI CRAB!!! TONIGHT! YES!!! [Winnie jumps up happily!]

Chilli crab chilli crab chilli crab chilli crab! HERE I COME!

64 isn't really a good number...-.-

I sat there on the floor thinking everything I believed in only happens in my sweet dreams... Thinking of what was going to happen, "will we succeed?" "Will what we strive for be burned up into ashes?" "Will all hope be lost?" , I lied down slowly and fell asleep... Helplessness~  

  

Sigh~ Band is damn pressurizing sia... You worry about it EVERYDAY, EVERYTIME... Lol, people get so pissed of about it that they too sian to bring home instrument le... Theory is making me lose my mind... ARGH! Okay, Rhythm for overture 2 is confusing but actually, if you really practise for quite some time, you'll realise that it's actually not that VERY VERY difficult, only VERY difficult. Okay, Winnie is being very lame here-.- 

Next, CELINE, I am still thinking of what I should get for you... Monday ba... Hehe...

Okay, I know that Flute section is trying very hard lor... If we didn't try hard, why would we feel very bad when Mr W suan us saying that we never even try harder... okay, well, we are all working hard... Well, most of us... -.- Sigh, so Flute section JIAYOU!!! =] We can all make it for SYF if everyone work hard, learn their parts and COOPERATION... Which I have no idea how we're really going to improve on... =[

Okay, enough crap on Valentine's Day, whatever, won't take up your precious time...(What do you do with your time?!)-.- Then, hehe, my mother's complaining that I'm luo suo... LOL.

=] 

* My brother wore socks and watched videos of Michael Jackson's moonwalk... Forward, then backwards, then forward slowly... Aiyah, you get it lar...-.- 

What's so interesting about a keyboard?=]

Okay, lastly, I just want to say that 'my birthday is exactly 7 months from now...' 

Sometimes the thing you're looking for is right infront of you but, you 'blind blind' never see, then missed it... So, thought of the post, OPEN YOUR EYES!!! Well, for band, OPEN YOUR EARS!!!

Very unlucky and sad day...

Sigh, what do you expect us to do?

We don't even have music background and everything is going at such a darn fast speed!

You see our score lar, taogays EVERYWHERE! See also can blind lor...

Nothing is really taught by you... Directly, its very... difficult for us... NOTHING IS EASY! Band has totally squeezed its big B.A.N.D. into my life. Every corner I walk, every dream I dream, every thing I think is about BAND! ARGH. . . Flute, I love you infinity percent but all that i believe in only happens in dreams... =[ So sad...

I have no heart to continue typing or the rest of the post will go 6f5v49g1s8gh4... See, I'm going crazy already...

Ohya, tomorrow's Valentine's Day, and thanks for all the 'gifts'... lol yes, thanks for the 10+ jellybeans, the cookie, a lollipop, and the everlasting grin? =]

Well, I just feel so confused and helpless now. Believe me, the feeling of helplessness is never good... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

I'm hungry...

Lol, entered the Band room hesitatingly today... No Band practice today but I wanted to practise on the darn running notes so, ya no choice... The main door was closed so I ASSUMED that it was not open. But you know, the good side of me was like "YOU HAVE TO PRACTISE!!! BAND ROOM IS OPEN, GET YOUR BUTT IN THAT ROOM!" But the evil side of me was like "IDIOT! THERE WAS THAT TIME YOU LISTENED AND IT WAS CLOSE SO WHY WASTE ENERGY! [turning body towards gate] YOU CAN WALK HOME WITH CELINE TOO!!!"

Then, I just decided that ever since I decided to join Band, I have decided to work hard and stay committed, so, I forced my stiff limps towards the Band room. I opened the door and... it was opened. OH WELL. Then I opened the second door and poked my head in. Okay, there was a few live souls. Then received a call from CELINE. Okay, my decision was getting a little wavered. But, I must be faithful to BAND, goodbye celine, band here i come. 

Well, I entered and was not really sure whether I was supposed to join them in combine or anything. Hey, I was apparently the only sec 2 and nobody said hi to me. At least Geoffrey helped me take my instrument... =] Okay, later, xx came =] then cj taught me the rhythm for bar 50... okay, improvements? 

Well, need to go eat apples now, beeps!

I am willing to learn if you're willing to teach.

Why am I dying? You ask me WHY?! Well, let me tell you the darn schedule.

Wed- Eng CA1 component 2, BAND. (I am complaining for the fact that I have to attend this compulsary chinese dunno what at the grand audi before I can go for Band... -.-)

Thur- Chem AND maths... (Together, holding hands...)

Fri- YAY, BAND again. =]

Mon- Geography test... Crap. On the first day of school... No wonder blue monday lor...

Wed or Thur- Chinese test...-.-

And I am too tired to remember the last one... lol...

I am definitely contradicting myself... How do I manage to smile at this point of time... =\

Sigh, actually, i seriously think I suck in Band... I think the slowest to learn is me lor... ={ Sigh! Now ys changed my flute again... bye 416424 and hello 53836... Now I need time to get use to this new fella... Lol, Mr Wong told me AND he also just realise on Sat that I was using the lousiest flute in CCHMSB! Lol, but I seriously love it lor... it has what 100 dunno what... I will miss you, 416424!!! Sigh, sometimes I don't cover the holes properly and end up playing this ugly and stupid sound. I am such an idiot. I have this feeling like I drag the Band down... I think I am worst than the sec 1s too... SIGH~ What a lousy senior I am... Blue blistering barnacles... ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!

ATOPA... I dunno the rhythm for the running notes!!! ahhhh!!! Crap with CAPS for rap and d.o.t.s. after every letter... AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! wth.

LOL, I seriously think the thing I should actually be happy about, is unsatisfying. Getting 20 for English CA1 component is so darn pissing...

And, rain, where on earth are you?! Though it did drizzle just now, but, WHERE ARE YOU!

i hate you...!

Okay, now for the happy / amusing stuff...

Mrs Ho came with a nice and different blouse today, wow. Done.

And, there's Band tomorrow. Done.

Finally, I can sleep early today... Reminds me, don't you'all need sleep??? Why am I the only one who seems to be lacking the one important thing of life... SLEEP! 10

Sigh~ Time flies in a blink of an eye, I grew up so fast... 13 years, 4 months and nearly 3 days of wastefulness... I think no one really notices how time goes so quickly... But how do I treasure it? HOW...?

Then, haha, I skipped school on Thursday! Yes, I slept till 9am then woke up to find 2 new messages, Celine and Ean Xiang!!! Oh hor, sms during lessons! 

Okay, whatever, then the next day... YAY, BAND again!

Lol, today went Evelyn aunty house for steam boat!!! =] Delicious. And, A-Heng is still crazy about bikes... Lol, drifting... He actually fell down while drifting... Paiseh... HAHS!

So happy that Mr Wong cancelled the difficult and super high running notes part for ATOPA. Today and a little of yesterday night, I practised all the running notes. Since Mr Wong says we have to be familiar with the notes, I ran through all again and again which actually tires my fingers. Miss Tan *(new tutor) commented about my high notes... Trying to improve them...

Okay, I will work very hard to get the running notes for ATOPA, VERY HARD! Memo part too... And, I will consider about changing my blog skin, so S.T.O.P. nagging!!!!!!!

S.T.R.E.S.S.