Reminiscing those days...
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I VOMITED.
I CANNOT BELIEVE IT.Wth. I seriously feel super damn sick now. The reason is damn obvious.
I am so SUPER freaked out for the fact that... okay. shall not mention. cause its making me sick again. AND, I vomited.
Okay, shall cut my crap and get to the point.
What's the point of saying sorry? You think a simple word with 5 letters work? Is that what you think?! Then you are too naive. As I had said in my wonderfully written earlier than earlier blog post, we are NOT going to care about you no more. Cause simply, we have given up on your case. -.- Do I need to jam it into your head for you to understand? What's the point of saying sorry when you revert to your stupid old ways? Will you change? OH~ Maybe ALL this is your BIG evil plan. Yeah, getting everyone to accept you and all the bullshit.
You know, this is crap. It seriously freakingly feel like Celine and I are the only ones thrown into this endless pit of misery. Though you people dont show it, BUT, we get this damn feeling that is super uncomfortable. Maybe it'll be better if you dont say anything at all. We can get response like:
1) Maybe those people who are neutral just dont want to hurt her feelings and be like a bad person by scolding her.
Ei, walao lar. I totally don't believe you are neutral. Because there'll definitely be okay and not okay. It makes a different although it may be just a little. wth. so you are trying to say we hurt her feelings? We are the bad people because we scold her? SEE WHAT I MEAN. You people are slowly unknowingly getting influence. You don't even know wth you are saying. Just because we scold her, she 'appears' hurt, we auto become the OH SO TERRIBLE bad guys. This is shit. totally faeces. OH WOW, she has feelings? WOW. Why don't you start with considering other people's feelings first? wow. Scolding = from a bad person. Well, you basically either got too pampered and never got scolded your entire life or you simply take her side. lols. If you think clearly, who's the one actually inflicting the hurt? YOU. You don't tell her how her behaviour is so darn unaccepted and she thinks its alright for her to do everything she likes to. And, in the future, there will be people like ME, the bad person, wanting to change her, who tells her off. Then she'll be like "Oh, but everyone seemed to not mind this. Not mind that." LOLS. Yeah, I am the evil person, the SUPER evil one, everyone should start avoiding me. yeah. Go on, avoid me, I am evil.
2) You know her what, she's always like that.
Wow, even better. Now I have a reason. YOU! You know she has that problem yet you don't tell her! one word for you, Selfish. Since you know it too. WHY? So what if I know she's like that. Give in to her ALL the time? lols. Constantly making me pissed over and over again. How can I get myself not to be bothered. if i do that, who's going to do justice for us? HAR! WHO. Nobody. Wow, great. Brilliant, wonderful.
Lols. Regarding the copy thing. you were wrong in the first place yet you still defending yourself. Wth lar. You make it all sound like it was none of your fault and make celine the evil one,like everything was her fault. you think all this is a game? You think this is a joke? You are sick.
Already admited you copy and pasted yet you say you didnt copy wholesale. -.- bullshit. you know what you did. You have one heck of a consience. You ass.! Do you know you are FREAKINGLY thick skinned? There's a limit to thick skinness, you just dont know when to stop right? THen you end up offending more and more. The fact that you copied and pasted the format alread proves you are a freaking copy cat, copy dog, COPY PIG! Format leh. Don't you know how celine treasures her blog? Use common sense. Why cant you get a backbone and use your own originality and creativity? Then you brush it off by saying that others copy too. Other people is their business, you copy them for wad. And, I can say that not many ppl will copy format lor. Everyone looks for their own uniqueness in their blog posts. Wherelse, I feel that what makes you = everything that you copied. you copy this then you copy that. Ever heard of copyright? very smart right? When have you ever not copied? lols. Oh, is it easier to say that I copy this entire compo from a book and change a few words. lols. ass.
I feel sick. Super sick. Now I have to shit it out. -.- After reading, I have feel so disgusted and puke-ish that whenever I see your name, I feel sick. I don't even want to see your face too. Your face disgusts me so much that I feel sick. Just hearing that voice makes me sick too. Every part of you is making me sick and disgusted. How I wish you NEVER existed in my life. Now this is evil. I have never imagined myself say this to anyone. Well, congrats to you. YOU SUCK TO THE CORE. I still feel sick. crap.
Now the only thing that lightens my life is the thought that I have 41 hearts supporting me and all that I say. Thanks. Oh, and the fact that we have p.e. tomorrow. muahaha.
Peace is all that I want... Is it so difficult?
P.S. Quietness and tranquility. (Oh, this seems cheem. hehe)
Oh, and Jinghao, I have high expectations =] so must jiayous!
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On Thursday, August 27, 2009 at 9:11 PM
Suppose to type this yesterday? Lols. Didnt really have the mood. Actually now also no mood. My anger has appeased a little so no point and no impact of the following.
Sigh. Not sure whether we just appear to care too much about you. Not sure whether you guys are true anymore. But one thing's for sure, we are alone to face this.
Can't you people see? Are you all blind? What did she do to you people? How I wish I could splash cold water into your faces. Wake UP!
You ALL think we are just over-reactive, too petty. Simply to say in a bad way, we are the bad guys. RIGHT? Oh, then she's right? Appearing to be the innocent one. -.- But what can we say. We dont have the rights to stop your decisions. They are for you to make...
But it seriously makes me feel like questioning. Questioning whether your fakeness infront of her is only for her? I start questioning who can I really trust? Even if I want to trust I find negative points which I can doubt. When we faced trouble, yall don't help us. right, it's our problem, we solve it on our own...-.- It sucks. It sucks to be me. We seem to be the only ones who care and the only ones who see. WHY? cause you all take this matter too lightly. No, you just brush it off practically. Thinking if you dun care about it, it won't matter. but, you allow her to think it is alright for her to act that way. You let her feel it is acceptable. WHY?!
Saddistically, everything isn't going my way
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On Wednesday, August 26, 2009 at 9:48 PM
Lols. Though I didn't really have much sleep yesterday night... But, today I felt better. After the dose of Band?=.=''' Haha. You know, recently I've been feeling very moody. Then alot of people keep asking me why I like so pissed. haha. guess I just didn't take in enough air. haha. yeah, then when I took a deep breathe, it hurt. T.T yeah, needa regularly take in deep breathe! 0.0 Xeap. So I guess I am feeling a little better.
Lols. I guess, the main thing is STRESS ba. Sian. Three tests in a go nia. I think I am flunking my tests nia. T.T sianz... haiz...
Watching [Fated to love]... Hehe. I really think ep1 is super sad. haha. i think the main female lead very beautiful leh. lols.
AIYO, I think I seriously need sleep nia... -.0 my eyes are turning into panda eyes lo. =.= Wake up every morning then see that my eyes like -.- one nia. haha'
okay. list of things to do:
Piority!!! Band suff. hehe. then class tshirt design, the table tennis thingy and clearing my messy bag. =]
Hehe, Celine and I have gotten a new hobby- Arranging books in T1 Times. LOLS. Then spend like 1 hour? inside. lols. haha.
What if one day I am not here to be by your side, will you miss me? = c
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On Thursday, August 13, 2009 at 9:23 PM
Yay, maths and chinese test OVER. Tomorrow is GEOGRAPHY test. Omg, I need to mug but I feel very sleepy. HAHA. Today was very tiring and pissing. Sigh~ Practically EVERYDAY seems pissing... I can't seem to get the class under control... So pressurising... Want to talk to you all in a normal tone but always end up screaming and shouting at the top of my lungs. -.- I am tired.
Lols, felt TIRED the entire day. My motivation was... BAND. And, I lived through today. Haha. Today was weird. LOLS. Well, we had sectionals today. Hey, now I understand how to play that part in A. MUAHAHA. Just need a little more practice to get that part right. hehe. Then, somehow throughout the day, I keep seeing my classmates. T.T so weird. then suddenly, we returned to the band room. Well, Mr Wong started his always never shorter than 15 minutes talk. Today, very weird. Very scary, very very scary. T.T Don't know whether I should be happy or ... -.-
Haha. I remembered, OKAY, MR WONG's Birthday is on 11/8!!! 11th of August. hoho. lols. Yesterday, Ty smsed us for anything thing we'd like to wish Mr Wong for his birthday. Then I was curious when his birthday was on, asked him... on his birthday somemore. HAHA. I think I am very dumb. I have gone very gong since I OT-ed yesterday till 1 am...
Next, feel that the new shower thingy is SUPER cool~ Xeap, you can change into 5(?) different styles. LOLS.
I think the coolest and most mysterious guy in the entire world, so far, is Criss Angel. =] MINDFREAK... haha.
I simply don't understand, it has hurt me deeply yet it has become my motivation. Why? Tears proved that I care alot. Tears also proved that I have suffered very deeply. I stare into the clouds and think... Is it worth it? ...
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On Wednesday, August 12, 2009 at 9:33 PM
YAY... Today had my first Band ARIC meeting wor! yay! SO happy and excited. haha. actually, was late today. haha. Then found out that "Kallang de macs" is the macdonalds near CCHMS. -,- LOLS. HAHA! So stupid right? Had the claimed to be pretty fast meeting. haha. Though it lasted for 1hour and 30minutes. haha. The meeting very interesting. =] Used my last year birthday present as ARIC notebook. YAYAYAYAYAY~ =] Very happy. Feel involved. I feel HAPPY~ Everyone seriously taking down notes. Haha.
Hmm, so weird. And Scary~ Michelle is the minutes taker, Rochelle and Jonathan incharges for theory, welfare to be Choyyu and Travis. Then......... I am somehow incharge of auditions and Mr Wong 1to1 sectionals. 0.0''' Hmm, so I am suppose to look out... And, when there's auditions, I have to decide which sections go first. If Mr Wong suddenly want to have sectionals with any one section, I have to arrangeT.T. lol... Like see the ahem... weaker sections to go first or something like that. =[
Because most likely, no auditioning at the time, and most likely Mr Wong won't want to have those sectionals ba... So at first I thought I am going t be happy happy and slack for this period of time and accidentally said it out loud. THEN, Singyan give the evil smile. Tell me I am ALSO incharge of sending those recruits sms. as in create them first. T_________T Still must seek the approval of RICs though. SIGH~ HAIX~ Blahblah.
I still very blur. Will someone PLEASE tell me why a lot of people calling me winnie wang? Then will give that very weird expression. 0.o
Today had fun. lols. Went KLP after meeting. Walked for 1hour and 15 minutes while waiting for two IDIOTS! TAN XINYI AND HUNG ZHIYANG!!! Both of them lor, happy happy paituo then forget bout me!!! YES!~ =[ Then I very sad you know! Call me that time still happy happy laughing. Somemore ask me go home leh. haha, want me let them have 'er ren shi jie'... 0.0 Lols.
okay. back to the truth.IT WAS THE ORGANISER HIMSELF LATE NIA!!!(organiser suppose to be the earliest nia.) yeap, so it turned out that zy was the main idiot who was late. Then manage to get a DELICIOUS YUMmy ice cream out of it. -.- Haha!!! Later we went for bowling. haha, i got strike you know! but still got 71 in the end. so little nia. afterthat, PLAYED arcade. muahah. Mario KART!!! YAY!!!!~ S0 fun. Then played the whacking game whack until my hands red red. =] SO FUN nia. the organiser SUPER indecisive nia.
Then later went home lo. At TM got my dinner with Celine. Haha, both of us confirm that the chicken rice seller was hitting on us.-.- HEY, uncle, you how old, we how old? LOLS, HAHAHAHAHH~
[Xiao mei, but two packets I give you discount wan?]
[I'm the only one eating so no point buying two packs]
I think the chicken rice really 3.50... I paid the chicken rice seller 10 bucks then he smile and return me 7 dollars and tell me, [xiao mei, I give you discount ar, don't tell others!]
Haha, I got the shivers. haha. ew... maybe i should've eaten yimian. =.=
returned home very tired.
I think our class is like ice cream...
Feeling involved... =] in band.
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On Monday, August 10, 2009 at 8:09 PM
YAY! THRASHED JINGYU TODAY!!! MUAHAHA!!! Had a badminton match at his condominium this morning with Celine, Beehoon, Eanxiang and Zhiyang. It was FUN~ =] Especially the thrashing Jingyu part lor. haha... In the first place, he doesn't even know where's out and where's in lor. HAHA! Then WE thrashed him. muahaha.
Yay, First ARIC meeting tomorrow nia, at Kallang somemore. muahaha. So happy and exciting. =] Wonder what we're discussing tomorrow... hmm. Ohya, then later will be having fun again! YAY! Muahaha.Ice skating ba. HEHE. I can't wait for tomorrow... lols.
LOVING Electrico!!! See the moon and the stars~ WOOHOO. They rawk. =] Expecially the guitarist. I think. haha. =] Watching Singapore Idol now. lols. so weird. Someone crying.=.=
SO SLEEPY. Going to sleep liao.
Sometimes I seriously want to indulge myself and have fun a lot of times but... I can't cos:
THERE ARE TOO MANY SCARY THINGS IN BAND MUSIC.
TOO MANY TESTS AND EXAMS CRAMMING MY BRAIN.
PISSING THINGS THAT TAKE UP MEMORY(that's why I got STM aka short term memo.)
SAD THINGS THAT CANNOT BE ERASED.
HAPPY THINGS THAT I DONT WANT TO ERASE.
Amusing things that brighten my life and shouldn't be erased......
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On Sunday, August 9, 2009 at 8:00 PM
HAHA~ Today's one of those days that is crazy and HAPPY~
yay, thanks to all who made my day... appreciated and stored in my memories...
Firstly, the expected detention didn't really happened today. Yay, got to enjoy the rest of my day.
Secondly, had a happy time playing sports! Yay, a way to relieve stress. But got my hands red all over.
Thirdly, celebrated my junior's birthday. Hehe.
Fourthly, felt sleepy purely because of having fun and not having a single worry.
Fifthly, GOING to sleep.
okay. Originally, I was thinking of joining Jia Ai they all, go K together after everything. Then Nicole came up and asked if I could celebrate her b'day with her since they Are going for bowling and she was the only girl. Hehe. Lols. Well, somehow, I decided to go with her. Piority to the b'day girl. Hahs. So, xx, xh, nicole and me went to tampines safra for bowling. YAY. Was going to win xh but somehow, xx and xh manage to strike nia. haha. B'day girl got owned with a score of 25. =] Scores got quite close at a point. But... eah, ended up third. haha. bad enough.
Then we didn't know where to go... So wanted to go xx's house but not only were we not allowed to go, and, he was ordered home. lols. So left xh, nicole and me. We decided to go tm with the intention of looking for nicole's new pencil case. so, we walked and walked. later suddenly lost xh. Then I thought of looking for him in minitoons and toys r us. while looking for him, saw jiaxin, kairong, eanxiang and celine. YAY. what a coincidence. lols. Found xh in yamaha. -.- so much like my brother. Hehe, went into toys r us later. got bubbles and went to the open plaza to PLAY!
Got the attention of many. mobbed by a group of children who are crazy bout bubbles. haha. but they're kinda rude. threatened to bite my hands if i didn't give him the bottle. lols. but so fun. sort of totured xh. haha
then decided to leave for home afterwards. Went to see the Singtel promotions. There was a competition on who can hold 'singtel' for the longest time. LOLS. I decided to sabo xh.muahaha. And I succeeded. Have the video nia. hahahaha!!! Very funny. he held for 24 seconds and set the record. won a water bottle that looked like jingyu's...-.- DONT THROW AWAY. keep as memorial... haha. then said goodbye at the bus interchange cos I wanted to wait for celine. walked around. again. drank pearly soya milk from mr. bean. HAHA. so creative, put red pearls because of national day. HAHA.
Summary, TODAY WAS A COOL DAY. one of the wonderful days... =]
I've been missing my animes. haha~
P.S. ALL my days are booked. maybe next time. haha
eyes about to close, fell asleep for a few minutes... NEED SLEEP~
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On Friday, August 7, 2009 at 8:41 PM
The very first, long awaited class outing. Guess where and when?
I guess this must really be very difficult to guess. ZZZ... Whole class detention. LOLS. Can you believe it?
Had our Geography field trip today to the Marina Barrage. Then Mrs Ho couldn't accompany us there. Some teacher told us we could enjoy ourselves there. There everyone very excited and happy. Taking pictures everywhere we go. However, everyone damn engrossed and made loads of noise. Until I cannot even hear the guide talking. lols. very sian. then I was in my miserable corner. Everything happening now... I cannot make myself smile... Sorry for me being in this state... Aiyah. then everyone also lagging behind. teacher tell you all move then you all like still taking pics. LOLS. However the guide didnt seem to be pekcek at all lor. Still smiling when we kenna scolded. Felt pissed. Knew we confirm kenna detention de. Well, one to say, Detention rawks.
Lols. Most probably hanging out whole day on Sunday. Muahaha. Hopefully can go Germaine's house. Feeling hungry daily. Celine can we eat frolick tomo?
Band music rawks but very difficult leh... Trying hard... 0.0
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On Thursday, August 6, 2009 at 9:06 PM
Nobody listens...
Nobody understands...
Nobody that opens...
Nobody to hear my rants...
Sigh~ Lately, I feel pretty darn stressed. Well, two things, Band and School stuff(including the class.) Everything seems to piss me off. I feel very tired. No time to take in sufficient air to last... Sigh~ lols, I only cry for 2 things, family and band... seemingly.
Sigh~ Bn has this very very irritating problem that never seems to be curbed. Whenever someone stands infront to talk, everyone also want to talk. Everybody gets so darn excited that they forget loads of things. Tried to get the class to listen to me. Screaming and shouting isn't really the solution to everything. I tried, I know. Then, how am I suppose to get myself respected? SIGH~ It is damn difficult to get all of your attention focused on me. Moreover, I get nervous, you know. AHEM. how many pairs of eyes glaring at me. lols. When you all create LOADS of noise, we cannot get the right info into your brains and then later you blame us that we never give you the vorrect info or we never tell you. Basically, you might want to question yourself if you had even paid attention in the beginning. -.-''' If you think it is so easy and you have a bigger mouth, go ahead and try, if you succeed, I will happily jam up my mouth and let you take over my position.
WtC, you all think being vice very easy ar? Come try lar!? Not only do you suffer the humiliation when your teacher openly makes a crude comment of the class directly in your face, and, you are actually the ic for all the class activity, along with the chair of course. I practially end up screaming 90% of the time. Though I don't get sore throat just by screaming... But, It IS damn pissing when you all give attitude and don't listen to me. Sian. Tell you all like that no use. See, for example, see, Denise, very difficult right today? Very very tiring right? =[
Next pissing thing.
Class tee issue. Lols. Must you all keep blaming that 'someone' who made the class tee last year and didn't make the class tee this year? Especially when... aiyah. simply, wth. You all so pro go do yourself lor. Do lar. Denise conducted the class tee discussion today, screaming and yelling all the way around 30 minutes. And, result? Colour only. LOLS. Say want make want make then in the end, nobody want to come up with design. Then everyone BLAME. Simply, blame. Last time, I conducted the exact same class tee discussion, everyone like this time, simply lazy to raise hand and scream, shout your suggestion out and blast it directly into my face. Then you all so indecisive, all of you want it your way. But, all of your ways are super incomplete. Who's going to design it? Who's going to make the purchases? Who's going to carry the heavy clothes home later? Have you all thought of the consequence? NO. Directly pin point Celine to do all the design. Wow. Have you all thought about her feelings? Does she want to do it? If she is unwilling, and never do, then in the end you all blame her. LOLS. So pro, design yourself lar! =[ very sad. We scream to tell everyone to SHUT THEIR TRAPS but later, everyone starts talking again. Then somemore, some of the people who shushed everyone will be the ones making the noise. -.- LOLS.
Sigh~ I sort settled my Band stuff and here comes school stuff. Living everyday is like a rollercoaster. There are so many funny and happy times, but one pissing thing ruins my entire day. Then you'll see that I never smile or laugh liao. Or seemingly, forcing myself to smile a little.
Somemore, I get the feeling that there are people unhappy with Mrs Ho decision of the chairpeeps. LOLS. Have problems say lar, backstabbers. Then somemore, you very kpo lehs. Not only are you bootlicking and sucking up to the teacher, you make me sick. Do a lot of extra stuff that are not appreciated and try to get loads of attention. LOLS. you are very noisy leh, you contribute to 70% of te noise pollution in our class. I feel sick when I am near you, but, yeah, there's the tolerance issue that pops up. I WILL NOT violate my priciples. -.- Okay, telling myself to stop. -.- better stop now or nasty language come out liao. =[
DAMN stress...=[ Wish I had a listening ear and a nice shoulder... (hehe, tried my bro's, not very comfy.) But, that person must be a dummy because who would want to hear another idiot jabbering nonsense to you... Yeah. So, simply, I'm... alone.
Life was (and is) a struggle, bitter and hard...
Nobody hears me...
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On Monday, August 3, 2009 at 9:19 PM
Halo~ -.-
yay, I finally changed a new phone and a new number.
yes, it's very cool. Hehe. But, you'all can still send messages to the old number cause I think my brother might be using it. =] Hehe.
Band today. Well, I think that Mr Wong was in a good mood. cause I think all the things I played today was more crappy than usual. lols. Though all the notes seemed simple enough mostly crotchets and minums but I wansn't familiar with it yet. -.- And, i actually missed out the change of time. -.- Stupid me. hmm, i have a very long way to go. to be able to play a piece so nicely and enjoyingly is what i aim for.
At tm just now and was watching a rock band competition. VERY cool. They live play one. Then as the bass drum thud, my heart beat along. lols. Very cool. THen somemore i was holding my flute. lols. some ppl staring at my flute nia. haha, i think they thought that I was going to participate with a flute. -.- LOLS. hmm, it can be creative but flute? er... rock band? ... hmm, doubtful though.
Think i seriously getting fatter.
OMG, I MUST CHIONG THROUGH ALL THE SONGS. ALL EQUALLY CHALLENGING.
There are many setbacks I constantly get, but the feeling I always get is seriously enjoyable. =]
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On Saturday, August 1, 2009 at 7:24 PM
About me
Just a random, average short girl who believes that life is a disaster in disguise as a blessing... Worrying has become a habit but anime will always remain engraved in my mind. =] Currently addicted to spacing out... And... Sleep is prioritised as number 1! People know me as Winnie. And I have roamed the Earth for 15 years. It all began on 14th September 1995...
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